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know me well?

2011-03-21T22:35:00.000-07:00

hey babes! I am actually back~
sorry for leaving my blog with dust...(mop mop..)
now it's time to make it blink and shine again
or even shinier and blinker than it used to be!

i found myself a little bit out-dated lately
got to follow up! (clap clap)

well~
to kick start my sudden will to blog,
i would like to share something about me !! (excited?)

ALRIGHT..
i was recently reading a book named TWENTIES GIRL,
that is an interesting novel for me =]
the author just know wat the reader like and write an amazing series of novel,
yea..i sink my teeth into it!!
on impulse, i decided to go back to my DEAR DIARIES here!
i really admire someone that is able to spread out their thought and feelings with fluent english~
Coz sometime when we are sharing our feeling, I may have to think twice about a proper word to describe it, and after the thought it may not anymore ur real feeling,
as u hv to use the word u know to describe it indirectly, it may change the thing u actually want to say...
this problem wont happen if I use Mandarin (be proud as a Malaysian and Chinese, guys!)

back to the topic ! it will be a long post...as i am telling what i like or dislike~

1) I DO NOT MAKE UP FREQUENTLY

alright i admit that i dare not to make up so frequent,
i dont like to live in secret, i know make-up do make someone look better
but the point is we have to make up everyday and we may not dare to show up in no-make-up face...
come on gals!
surely u can make up but be brave to show the real you!
dun let the bloody cosmetic to lead u !!
YOu are who you are!
so grow up then~

moreover, the more chemical stuff applied on your face, the more skin problem u will get. Seriously, you may love to kohl your eye and it really does look bigger BUT soon or later it will turn out pigmentation, dull skin and you name it!

love yourself, love the real you, sweetie~

2) I TAKE CARE OF MY EYES

do not laugh, i mean it...
i dislike facing tv or computer too long,
watching the screen make my eyes swallow and tired...
radiance does ruin your eyes!
SO, take a rest per 30 minutes in front of the pc~

in fact, I do love my eyes that u may cannot imagine how..
i could not let myself thinking if i hv to wear spec every single day,
i could not imagine my vision was totally blur without spec,
I WILL DEFINITELY FREAK OUT..

to save your eyes, you know, before it is too late,
take CARROT and WOLF-BERRY as your best friend!!
i know, best friend doesn't eat each other but they do love each other!
love them and they will be happy to be eaten, tat is it for~ (smile brightly)

3) ADMIRE AFFAIRS

there are some people become famous because of their look, make-up, dressing way...
but i dun admire those as tat is so shallow~
dun you guys think so?
they just like them for surface causes..
they become famous but hv done nothing, hv contribute nothing~

I do have many idols in fact (i fall for person so fast,yea~ i know!)
i like them for their talent,their work and so on..
too many to mention one by one (=p)

but for those who don't like my idol,
if you dont like tat is your business, dun u dare scratching their reputation or do something bad towards them!!!
stop insulting someone u dun like !
YES I AM TALKING TO YOU!
tat is okay to talking to empty air at your home,as you please~
but keep your fucking mouth to yourself!!
please make sure you know them well before you say against them!!!!
u SUCK!! damn you super nob!

people hv the right to love but you dun hv the right to comment!!
if you think you are telling the truth , think twice!! u childish bitch!

alright,
tat is not i am blogging for~
forget about it (say CHEESE~~)

4) I LOVE MY FRENS AND FAMILY

enough said. yipee!

5) I LOVE FASHION

tat is a torture for me now that i hv to stay at home everyday before uni stuff~
BECAUSE i love to doll up myself and dress on my style..
wat is my style? actually is the way i love to dress~
i love to wear something casual yet chic, sweet yet sexy, elegant but comfy~
i know wat u r thinking, but let me tell u:tat is exactly not a MISSION IMPOSSIBLE!!

i hv my own dressing style but someone keep mocking my choice as MATURE ><>

6) I LOVE TO SING

wow! singing is the best way to express yourself!!
however, dun you try to ask me to sing when i am not in mood (save your saliva)

yes i love hits songs (high five!)
humming FIREWORK by Katy Perry...
know y i love FIREWORK?
because i love Katy Perry's firework-ed boobs! (just kidding)
i wondered wat whould i do with it if i hv those useful boobs?
i may hv earned so much money as everyone will hire me to do FIREWORK PERFORMANCE(Laugh Out LOud)
i think there should be an essay titled is IF I WERE KATY PERRY, or IF I HAD KATY PERRY'S BOOBS...

that will be so much fun!!!
dun u think so?
if there is an essay contest like this, i will no doubt participate!
wat will i do?
i will shoot BIG gummy bears with SMALL n TINY gummy bears...
I will shoot Mr. Skinny Spaghetti with thick tomato sauces...
It sound delicious, doesn't it?
or maybe i will spark splendid firework to those bad guy trying to trick me to their bad (i was thinking to shoot bullet but that is illegal...so...)

and last but not least,
i will shoot Saleisha Archie with facial cream!!! or maybe 99% bacteria free hand-sanitizer?

7) I LOVE ANIMALS

i love animals (maybe should call pet) so much!
i had hv hamsters as my pet in the past,
it ended unhappily~ skip the sad thing (jump!)

my parents do not like pet except fishes and turtle (i think is becoz they dun make sound)
so i gave myself a promise to hv petS when i grow up!
erm~ how about a smart puppy? (u know there are some bleed tat is really smart?)
and also a cute and furry puppy!!
for sure i will hv hamsters too !!

OMG
i think i hv to built up a pet house for them~
just like Paris Hilton do !
wondering...wat color should it be?
u know, colors do mean something...
DO RESEARCH!!!
relax, not you, i am talking to myself =]

way too much to talk~
well,
this post hvnt ended yet...so stay tuned for another, next time ;)

do know me more in my FACEBOOK or TWITTER yea? (look at the side bar~)
i will be glad to know friend~ my pleasure *

alright!
let your eyes to relax now!
close your pretty eyes...
be ready...

here is something i got for y'all (drum-rolling...)

xoxo,
Nicole loves

Langkawi Trip

2011-01-08T22:37:00.000-08:00

OMG
have been long time leave my blog behind ~
well,
i am kinda busy sometime... XD

as i promised (i found out i always broke my promise with innocent time)
i m going to show u guys some photos of my Langkawi trip!!!!

crazy pool game... guess wat ? we played ICE AND WATER !!

we all bought the same fedora ^_^ we r way too funny !!

get ready for water-war !!

our expensive lunch after bath ...

the water was too hot and we decided to stay back from melting down~ XD

ya~ they weren't ready... =p

had dinner at pasar malam before GURNEY PLAZA ~~ local Penang food were great...

see me ?

gals in the room!!!
to be honest, i like the Penang suite more than Langkawi hotel ~

these are a little bit blur >< not tat little thou ...

ready to go? i was going to other guys' room =]

tat is for today ^^
more photo next time <3

this is THE BUNNY i bought at Gurney Plaza !!ｌｏｖｅ　ｉｔ　ｓｏ　ｍｕｃｈ！！！

xoxo

not over u ~

2010-12-12T05:34:00.000-08:00

lala
this is the 3rd days i backed from Langkawi trip ^_^
the heart still feel empty and lonely ...
they cried badly on the last day before going home,i didnt
but when i got home,i cried like crazy ~ ><

i got no much feelings on my gangs of friends
but there is a super duper strong on other classmates
all of them treat me so goddamn well!
unfortunately, tat 4 days of trip i didnt get the chances to stick with them
feel so sorry... regret and guilty~~

anyway,
i love all of them...
waiting the camera gal to come back from Taiwan
photos are coming soon~~ ^_^

seem like thr is nothing for u guys to see
this will be a short update ...
it's time to share a song XD
i am addicted to that =)

enjoy tat <3

Hospital

2010-12-03T06:11:00.000-08:00

recently gonna head to hospital
my dear mummy is sick TT

hv to accompany her coz she cant speak Malay or English
poor mummy...
hope she get well SOON!!
GOd bless Mummy <3

i dislike Hospital
it is a noble place with doctors and nurses in
but i hate to step in thr

thr r all unhappy or sick ppl
they look normal outside but u dunno what actually happened inside
maybe he is so sad...maybe she is so disappointed ...
who knows?
u will find out how warm a smile is
walking in hospital
the only thing i think when facing a stranger is to give them a smile..
no matter what happened, smile always works~

i dun like the sad feeling in there
everyone is so calm and quiet~
patient is lying on the bed motionless
the parents of the patient sitting thr motionless

the situation is too cold
hospital is so cold...

alright,
i just can hope i wont go in hospital =]

just to inform~~
i am going to Langkawi soon !!!
YIPEE~~
two more days to go ...
this will be an awesome trip with my classmates ~

i am so excited but kinda worry a little bit XP
will only back on Thursday ^^

may the star bless my mom be healthy always...
and cross ur finger to bless my trip =]

xoxo,
see u !

music lights up my life

2010-11-25T05:37:00.000-08:00

dear readers,
i am gonna share my 'Songs of the month' XD
i found it cheerful and interesting to share something i like ^_^

November is a lovely month~
my birthday month...
a holiday month =]
stressless month (except for SPM fighters~)
how do u feel huh ?

here u r :

Boom boom boom...even brighter than the moon moon moon ~~
Katy Perry-- Firework

i like her latest performance on this song :)
and the way her MV bring out the meaning of life ..

Misery-- Maroon 5

i like this song as if it will never be out-dated =p
feel wanna dance with the melody ~~
but the MV ... tha gal is too funny~ lOl

but i don't mind ~~~~~
Ne Yo-- Beautiful Monster

this song always swim over my brain~
i know it is not hits anymore
but still lovin' it :)

Baby tonite~~~~
DJ got us falling in love-- Usher

oh~ how could i forget this song ?
the way Usher perform his music is 'speechless'~ XD

the world...the world is spinning ~~~
Jay Sean-- 2012 (It ain't the end)

don't tell me u dunno the singer of this song
as it told everytime u heard the beginning XD

u know i know how ~~
Flo Rida-- Clun can't handle me

Let's dance gals!!!
move it ...

Lady Gaga-- Speechless

i had other views toward Lady Gaga since listening to this song
different huh ?
i strongly promote this to my friends ^_^

one month more to Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love Christmas so much =]
where is my Santa Claus ? XD
r u guys ready for it ?

Light me up with me on top lets falalalalalalala x2
Lady Gaga-- Christmas Tree

she is so cute in this song!!!
awww~ so sweet....

David Archuleta & Orla Fallon-- Silent Night
well~beautiful and angelic voices...
this will be a warm Christmas ^u^
i love the romantic feel of this song ~
seem like going back to childhood...sweet =]

did u enjoy this?

xoxo,
<3 music

2010-11-21T08:12:00.000-08:00

prom night update soon ~

xoxo,
good night everyone ^_^

New Me

2010-11-13T06:38:00.000-08:00

mmm...
today is the 1st day of my holiday ^_^
i am graduated !! not officially ><

i dyed my hair yesterday ~~
YIPEE~~
is Dark Chocolate =]
i like the color...
it is not obvious without light (or maybe spotlight)
but under sunlight,the color is beautiful too !
it seem like my hair got 2 color XP

my dad even named me as 'Chocolate Head'~
it sounds so delicious XD

since yesterday,
i like the smell of my hair so much !!
i think it is the smell of the colorings ~
it smell so GOOD ~~~
feel so gentle,soft,smooth ....arrg~ it is so tempting ...
i finally know y is fragrance so important ^_^

the smell also reminds me the stylist who dyed my hair~
he have given me some special impression =p
erm~ i will remember him ~~
i will sure go back tat saloon again when my 'putting' come out...
i hope the smell wont gone off ...(sweet smile)

yesterday was totally MY DAY ~
i got a late-present yesterday =)
is a Hello Kitty bag !!!
she is my favorite cartoon ^^
by the way,
the bag is pinky white in color ~
it looked gorgeous but not too childish =]
i don't really like that kind of bright pink + too cute stuff ...
I know, i like Hello Kitty (she is cute XP)
but she is exactly suitable cartoon for adult and teenagers and children~
she is not only for children !!

well,
my camera in phone is not professional..
so my hair color is not obvious in photo~
I didn't post my updated photo anywhere...
maybe i should try to take pic under sunlight =)

i will try my best,
photo is coming soon ~~

xoxo,
Chocolate Nic

CLEO

2010-11-06T07:07:00.000-07:00

let's talk about my favorite magazines today ^_^

guess what?
CLEO!!!!!!!!!! =]
this is absolutely an informative and useful magazine~
it introduce every brands u can find in Malaysia
dont u guys think that it is so uncomfortable when u see something nice but u cant find out it in M'sia?
This magazine solve this problem perfectly
as u all know,
i like western stuff~
CLEO is so western in its own way...
it tell all about famous brand with price-labeled~

well~
CLEO is not a mere magazine with clothes, accessories, shoes...blah blah blah
it teach some meaningful article to color our life too
more importantly,
CLEO is definitely cheap enough!
it sold only RM5.60~
gals~~
how much did u all spend in VIVI or POPTEEN? XD
no hard feelings~
i know...
there are differences between JAPAN style with WESTERN style~

i think the most different thing is that CLEO is more realistic, for me =]

time to share my favorite Fashionable BRANDS~~
CARLO RINO is the most lovely *
COUCH is always guaranteed but the price is pretentious~

SHOES time ~
i wondered how much awesome designers does VINCCI has got XP
i love VINCCI from my deep heart ...
nevertheless, i like CHARLES & KEITH more than i can say ~

for clothes,i doubt that i can mention them all right here :p
NICOLE MNJ is always the number 1 ~
TOPSHOP for sure...
FOREVER 21...
MISS SELFRINGE ...
more and more and more~~

CLEO magazine can no way miss out the cosmetic
it teaches techniques
it shows varies way for make up,dressing...
wow!
CLEO is so helpful~~

oops!
forgot the important one~
CLEO magazine actually provide so many chances for us to win hampers!!
monthly~~
is it so worthy?

TIME'S UP for nagging XD
i just wanna spread my love~

xoxo,
BLAH BLAH BLAH Nicole :)

041110

2010-11-04T06:21:00.000-07:00

kind of emotional lately
well~
going to graduate...
my mood is floating like swimming in waves
always messed up by this touched stuff ><

FYI, i am an easy-cried person

the days before,
i was so excited and delightful for the graduation
repugnantly,
i was moody and reluctant to leave~

additionally,
i am so worry and confused about my further study plan lately
always messed up by those progresses of application
i think i am going to freak out ~~
the more i get in, the more confidence i lose

in case u all don't know,
i am going to choose ENGLISH for Professional Communication as my further study
at City University of Hong Kong
or maybe Singapore or Baptist University of Hong Kong...
so not sure yet..

FYI,
i love English so much
u all can see it as i love to write ^^
and i love the America's things~~
so, i would like to step in the "indulgence" ~~
i love Language ,actually~
gonna express my enthusiasm and ignite my passion in my studies !!

Let's not talk about stuff that turn out black hair into white
i am totally in the One Tree Hill fever now !!!!!
and i am lovin' it ^_^
thank to my sister and the PPS software
i can now watch what i have been waiting for so long !!!!!
never feel ashamed to introduce my favorite: One Tree Hill~
even if without Lucas and Peyton
the drama is still stunning !!!(feel like gonna hug the monitor now XD)

8TV broadcasted the season 6 last time
when it finished,
i were so damn down at times~
by the way,
i always hope that the season 7 will come back soon
i know, eventually~

cant really explain my weird habit
i dont like to watch drama/movies through computer
that ruins my eyes and i love my eyes SO MUCH =P
but due to the addiction , i could not control myself from OTH
i will try my best to reduce the frequency~

my ghost bumps emerge every time i hear the theme song of OTH:
< i dont wanna be >
erm~~ i forgot the singer XP
by the way,
the song is especially sung by the person for OTH
OTH-designed XD
so there is no complete form of this song ~
still remember i had searched for this song so hard
and finally i got it !! wahahaha XD

oppsy
i have talked too much about OTH ~~
alright~
for a update :
i am heading in the application for universities these days..
so free and relax for books and magazines~~
planning some girls' hang out...

time flies so fast in busy daily life
my life is quite full recently
grow up, Nicole =]

like to listen to some great songs?
here u go:
DJ Got Us Falling In Love (by Usher)
Misery (by Maroon 5)
Love The Way You Lie (by Rihanna and Eminem)

xoxo,
enjoy ur holiday ~~

1st November

2010-11-01T06:14:00.000-07:00

OMG~
finally i can be proud to announce that:
today, I, Nicole Tang Rou Ying is legally 18 years old !!!!

no much transformation on me..
but for the future days, who knos ? XP

some of my graduation messages from my friends are So Me..
can i call that like this ? XD
yes, i may fly higher and further after all..

sometimes
just wondered what will my future look like~
after graduation
i can fly~
but where is the most suitable place for me ?
i am damn so afraid of stepping the wrong step~

i always said that : Believe ur dreams come true everyday, bcoz they did~
i must find myself some faith then...
it is easy to say but not that easy to succeed
anyway,
do what u love or love what u do
just to share with u all to enjoy y'all lives~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Nicole TRY and Penn Badgley (gossip gal's main male character)!!!
happy birthday to the babes who were given birth on 1st November~~

phewww.....
i got my mood overwhelmed
today's a totally memorable day !!
thanks to my dearly friends
the birthday song really shocked me XD
love u guys~~ <3

thx to the gifts too~ i love them so much ^_^

thank to my sweeties~~

those are so cute ...

gonna give u all a big kiss:

muuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaacccccccccckkkkkkkkkkssssssssssss~~

to my cute friends from Editor Club:

u three are so sweet ~~~

couldn't forget that "present" ...

gonna miss u guys soon XD

didnt take photo of my presents

it may take some time XP

be awaiting~~

now is the time to share this:

cheers~~~~~~~~~~(especially for coffee-addicted)

may God bless me to have a brighter future since today =]

love,peace,free ~~ ^_^

xoxo,
happy 111~

Halloween

2010-10-31T05:39:00.000-07:00

wow
had had a blast day with my friends ^_^
but the legs are deep deep painful ~~
erm, should have wear high heels more often...

BBQ Plaza was our first destination for lunch
YUMMY~~
love the sauce... and the lime XD
but i am not a "meat-lover"..
those meat was too much for me ><

go to STARBUCKS for the 1st time (kind of embarrassing about tat...)
love COFFEE from my deep heart =] SATISFIED ~~~~

we saw some Halloween-dressed people walking in Pavilion

feel the festive mood for sure ^^

FAHRENHEIT is a definitely awesome place to shop~~

so is Pavilion...

yes, i will visit there again and many more XD

finally i bought my dress
at NICOLE MNJ ..
woohoo~~~~
overwhelmed ^_^

say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me tomorrow

remember yea? *.*

we ended our shopping by sitting thr
(sigh) we're not able to walk anymore ...

today's lesson:
never wear too-high heels for shopping XD

oops~~
forgot to say :
HAPPY HALLOWEEN !!!! guys.....

xoxo,

let's pretend baby ~~

xoxo

2010-10-30T05:35:00.000-07:00

i am back, guys~~
totally throw my exam far far away ...

Excited ^_^
is going to hang out with my dearly gals tomorrow!!
FYI, 1st November is my so-18-Important birthday XD
so we are going to celebrate it tomorrow <3 transformation =]

xoxo,
growing-up Nicole

SWITCHing

2010-09-26T06:23:00.000-07:00

Woohoo
i went to REDBOX yesterday(25/9)with my dears ^_^
Sweet Alienee, Crazy Saleisha and Nerd Juanita~
we all were out of control in the box ><
for Juanita and Saleisha,it was their 1st time to sing with me..
the very 1st time to sing English hits songs
we were excited and insane...totally crazy XD

we brought camera but didnt hv chance to take photo
the box was too dark
too bad about that...great memories

we got no time to go shopping together
i had to rush back, as usual TT
more time is definitely indeed !!
my apology to my dears

well
seem no photo
this will be a short update ^_^

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as everyone knows
my result have been worse this semester
WTH
it is totally ridiculous~

i did my revision so fucking early
i did memorize what teacher told to
i did my practices till midnight !

WTH happen to my results?
did i go through the wrong way?

i used to be satisfied by my results as it was based on my effort
i meant, almost is what i had been working on

well, reality is always the cruelest
i should know the reason
but FYI, i absolutely hv no idea ~

this was TRIAL , man~
how am i going to face my UEC with this result ?
DAMN it... i am definitely a DUDE !!

i dun want to be the person who dun know what is she working for
i think i am close to be that person ><

it does hurt when ur efforts gained nothing back
it really really HURTS !!

well
things go on, in routine
seems i cant change what had happened
i am going to FIGHT to dead!!

hope my dreams come true,oneday ~

xoxo,
Nic ..in rainy + windy night ~

Zakka

2010-09-22T05:30:00.000-07:00

feel interesting on something recently
have u guys ever read the article about Zakka?
it is something about hand-made crafts or cute miniatures..

let's see some picture~

believe that, it is all hand-made, by an amazing gal with outstanding artworks

without doubt, she is famous for her large series of crafts
she even has her promotion in US and Australia

what a virtuoso works! Do visit her blog : http://evangelione.blogspot.com/

Zakka is not only about cute but also about design and professional skill
yes, not only mini size but this:

dolls made by only socks and fabrics...

i have such a special feel on SEWING ~~

http://meiweihuang.blogspot.com/ (above)
this blogger is so pro in making doll house with clay

http://maymayshop.blogspot.com/:her shop is absolutely fabulous!! many adorable materials sold thr...

i begin feel interested on those hand-made works
i like miniature stuff since i was young XP
mmm... i think i can make a great job right ?
i have the passion and enthusiasm wat...

i am still making my decision whether start or not
it needs large amount of CASH ...
additionally, i have no idea where to buy the materials..
they always located at Singapore and Johor~

once i start
i must pay all my attention and passion on it
so...should i do that?
i wanna create my style of series
i even want to open my shop in web
not a bad idea rite ? ^_^

i hv got some ideas about the design ald ><
OMG
i am so into it ...
fyi, i got a sewer in my house ^_^
i might hv inherited my parent's talent..who knows? =]

i love fabrics and cotton works,like those laces, prints, patches and buttons!!
prefer accessories, hanger,necklace and dolls to doll house
doll house is too professional for me,merely a part-time 'worker'~

tat will be my habit soon or later
maybe after UEC
i cant wait for it XD
hope my parents will lend me some hands =p

this is a beginning to get inspired
begin looking for unique thing to design
GOD bless me ^^

xoxo,
exam ended~

LOVE

2010-09-20T06:35:00.000-07:00

I miss him~
yes
I do...<3

Somethin' Bout Love

2010-08-28T06:55:00.000-07:00

Love this song from my deep heart =]
is the new single by David Archuleta..

do u guys find that he's grown up so much ?
he is taller and slimmer !!
and of course, cuter ^^

LET'S SING IT OUT LOUD !!!!!!!

Every night it's all the same
You're frozen by the phone
You wait, something's changed
You blame yourself every day
You'd do it again
Every night

There's something 'bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free

There's something 'bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh...
But don't give up
There's something 'bout loveee

When you were young
Scared of the night
Waiting for love to come along
And make it right
Your day will come, the past is gone
So take your time
And live and let live

There's something 'bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free

There's something 'bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh...
But don't give up
There's something 'bout loveee

Don't fight
Don't hide
Those stars in your eyes (in your eyes)
Let em' shine tonight
Let em' shine tonight

Hang on
Hang in
For the ride of your life
It's gunna be alright
Hold on tight

There's something 'bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh

There's something 'bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free

There's something 'bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It'll bring you to your knees (to your knees)
There's something 'bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh...
But don't give up
There's something 'bout loveee

Whoa oh oh oh..
Set's you free
There's something bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain

Random

2010-08-21T23:38:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYS~
ignore my black eyes bag ><
sleep late these days

by the way
i think
i gonna leave internet for a while
a long while ><

the exam is around the corner
the trail exam

i have planned my studies actually
but i am quite lazy
the progress is kind of slow ><

my determination is strong, i think
but i always do my revision with television
GOSH
i am suck right ?

anyway
my busy life is gonna end soon
i can do my revision with my whole heart then
CONCENTRATE !!!!

anything can help me to concentrate?
i feel lonely while study alone in midnight
so quiet till i want to get something with sound effect
i feel comfortable when the television is on
i dunno the reason
but i just feel like someone is accompanying me =]

i found it so distracting
but i could not make my mind to turn the TV off

i am really suck right ?

wasting my time for nonsense thing

maybe i should try to be tough
and go to turn off the TV
hope i can do this myself ^^

come on
cross your finger
wish me best of luck
and ~~~

GOD BLESS ME
i will do well in my exam <3

Just to remind
tonight better not to go out guys
if u believe in those traditions

however
i dont believe XP
dun blame me for that
i just dont like to link myself to fear
seem like finding trouble myself

PEACE yea?
do have great days and wait for me to come back :)

some photo to share ^^

she seldom smile that bright huh?

the sunglasses i bought with Alienee

how is it ? XD

no more lazy gal
Ciaos~

Celebration with Bear

2010-08-15T00:20:00.000-07:00

14th August
my class celebrated Xiong ge's birthday (19/8)at Hotstar BBQ Buffet =]
almost everyone was there to go for crazy night
Great great memories ever <3
Love them all ...crazy guys~
now i will still smile every time i think of it ^^

had a blast with my dear gals =]

Women Gang take2 Alienee look so HOT in this photo <3

my lover on left and my wife on right ^^

the left:my girlfriend who I date with every morning :)

A big brother who come back that night
i took the chance to cham whore with him ^^

Alienee -- my lover <3

my silly daughter >_<

i was feeding my BIG BOSS a big 'scoop' of cake XD Oops...so crazy~

erm~ i called her MUMMY but she is officially my wife...so confused XP

chamworing with Xiong ge , our fat bear XD

HAPPY GREAT BIRTHDAY to Xiong ge =]

p/s: more photos are coming soon
wait for it ^^

Appreciate

2010-08-11T06:21:00.000-07:00

gonna blog about this
random thought that
we hv to appreciate what we have
never too late from now on

could u guys imagine what if the air surrounding us is not clean anymore?
what u inhale and smell will be different
could u imagine something necessary become harmful someday?
i could not think about that
think about our future...

what we eat now is not as natural as the past
but how will it be in following days?
something we put into our mouth is made in some folded process
some process we know but cannot avoid from

human-being is going to change someday
the structure
the organ

why don't
start appreciate now
stop making the world worse
that is our future as we still have many years to live !!

i am not going to ask u to Go GREEN
but please dont ruin ur future with some unnecessary damage
where is ur humanity ?

PEACE

Mummy house

2010-08-06T06:21:00.000-07:00

excited memories
i hv stayed at Khang Lei(mummy)house for three days !!!!
due to the Sport days
we, three of silly gals got a opportunity to stay over night at mummy's house
for our visit
mummy bought a lot of junk food and beverages for us !!!
how great is she =]

though i feel guilty for disturbing her family
but we had had a lot of FUN !!! a lot alot~~
we watched movies (although was quite boring)
we did a mask party(although someone was tired and fell asleep!)
we had a great steamboat as dinner (although had to spend her mom's money ><)
we watched cartoon together (found out Astro dun hv interesting channel to watch)
we went Pasar Malam together...almost lost mummy there XD
sorry to waste her parent's time...we walked till quite late (lOl)
we went Kim Gary and Jusco in the 1st day~ ate till so full!!
i bought a special bottle there =] yipee~~
i also bought a sunglasses with Alienee <3 finally got one !!

we also made food early in the morning
feel so proud of myself XD
everyone got their name on the special sandwiches ^^

the 'special' meant the sandwiches were made according to everyone's favor !!
so full to eat as breakfast~~
cause us could not finish the spaghetti >< wasting food

never feel ashamed to inform: we woke up so late every morning XP
except the last day we woke up early to make ourselves a warm breakfast
MUSHROOM SOAP !!!!
delicious ...yummy~~
so warm to hv home-made breakfast in the morning
so full though~

we also bought CORNFLAKES in Jusco ^^
ate it before steamboat..made us so full till could not finish the steamboat AGAIN:(
the HONEY CORNFLAKES is so so so delicious with HL milk <3
especially ate it during watching tv
enjoyable huh ? ^^

mummy's house is so comfortable as she lives high in hill
windy all the time
and air-conditioning too :)

not willing to blog about sport days
we were so tired in the stadium
hot weather and sticky skin >< YUCK!!
but we enjoyed in taking many photos there ^^
will post them up soon and later

mummy's parents treated us so well!
way too well!! ^^
some medicines...some fruits and yummy breakfast !!
could not thank enough for those stuff~
and there were so many food in the fridge
but i missed the ice-cream ><
feel sad to leave the house so soon ~~
anyway
hope mummy will not blame us for disturbing and messing up XP

happy memories and best days as my 1st time <3
really hope there will be another chance !!
maybe MOON CAKE FESTIVAL ?
gonna smile bright to recall that 3 days
miss my cute mummy =]

great shirt ^^ love it deep deep ~

New Banner

2010-08-01T05:53:00.000-07:00

i made my new banner myself
1st time trying to make friend with Photshop =]
hopw the result is getting better
i will practice more ^^

Yipee~~

Teacher's day

2010-07-17T20:41:00.000-07:00

this is a short update about my school life
Teacher's day on 15/7/2010~~

actually i feel like enjoying Children day XP
will blog about the sushi-home-made day soon =]
Be awaiting ~~ ^^

my gang of girls

* i like this photo but for no reason =]

the way we smile and laugh ~

THE SISTERS

silly gal...s XD

my army lOl

Twilight Eclipse =]

2010-07-16T08:24:00.000-07:00

nothing much to talk about my love
Twilight Eclipse <3

let the pictures do the recall =]

it is really speechless about their Love~
so powerful and touching
COMPROMISE =]

everyone in there is professional

don't u guys think that Edward Cullen has become much more handsome ?
OMG
his breathtaking smile !!

FIFA

2010-07-11T07:03:00.000-07:00

如果那个靠别人乌龙而进入决赛的国家拿冠军
那内幕
还会有光吗?

haha
i still felt not fair for Brazil
got to support Spain, for sure =]

Spain fight!!!
tonight is definitely the key ~~
God bless u all <3

BILLIONAIRE *

2010-07-05T07:26:00.000-07:00

I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad
Buy all of the things I never had
Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen
Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh yeah
I swear the world better prepare
For when I'm a billionaire

Yeah I would have a show like Oprah
I would be the host of, everyday Christmas
Give Travie a wish list
I'd probably pull an Angelina and Brad Pitt
And adopt a bunch of babies that ain't never had sh-t
Give away a few Mercedes like here lady have this
And last but not least grant somebody their last wish
It's been a couple months since I've single so
You can call me Travie Claus minus the Ho Ho
HOHO

Get it, hehe, I'd probably visit where Katrina hit hehe
And damn sure do a lot more than FEMA did
Yeah can't forget about me stupid
Everywhere I go I'm a have my own theme music

Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh yeah
I swear the world better prepare

For when I'm a billionaire
Oh oooh oh oooh for when I'm a Billionaire
Oh oooh oh oooh for when I'm a Billionaire

I'll be playing basketball with the President
Dunking on his delegates
Then I'll compliment him on his political etiquette
Toss a couple milli in the air just for the heck of it
But keep the fives, twentys
And yeah I'll be in a whole new tax bracket yeah
We in recession but let me take a crack at it
I'll probably take whatevers left and just split it up
So everybody that I love can have a couple bucks
And not a single tummy around me would know what hungry was
Eating good sleeping soundly
I know we all have a similar dream
Go in your pocket pull out your wallet
And put it in the air and sing

I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad
Buy all of the things I never had
Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen
Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh yeah
I swear the world better prepare
For when I'm a billionaire
For when I'm a billionaire
I wanna be a billionaire so frickin bad!

Toy Story 3

2010-07-04T01:35:00.000-07:00

HOLA ~~~
got to blog about the recent movie i watched
it was too awesome
either the humor part, the meaningful part, and the outcome amazed me !!
the script is so great to be brought out
"Toy Story 3" is not only for child ==
it is an adult cartoon !!

it had brought me to tears
it had brought me to smile
Gosh
who is the creator?
brilliant movie =]

there are too many scenes sticking in my brain...
the Buzz-lighyear in Spanish mode
the fresh and healthier Bart
the "roti canai" Mr.Potato
the love story of Barbie and Ken XD
all the funny action and words

and of course the touching scene when Andy gave his toys away to a litte gal,Bonnie
it brought out those childhood memories

well,
remember that they are always there for us
right inside out heart, somewhere unforgettable

toys are alive because they are in our memory
so never forget who have been ur companion all the time

Gotta say "Rock!" to Toy Story 3 !!!
cant wait for next episode <3

miss them especially those Aliens who like CRAWLS so much XD

and i want to be that sweetie~ Bulleye ^^

口说无凭

2010-07-03T05:54:00.000-07:00

好久没跑了
今天酸痛><

甜甜蜜蜜的生活
昨晚的夜市有收获咯=]

《灿烂的遗产》大结局了
很爱它的剧情
感动 ^^
终于醒了：好的东西是值得等待的 <3

原来跑步可以看出一个人的个性
for me
我一开始会坚持、努力
所以到了快要结束时
我会慢下来

为什么和别人那么不一样
别人在最后更有冲劲
反而我却没有那股劲儿
也许有了那股劲儿
我就不会原地踏步了

= 家长日 =
有要求是正常的
以前我比较难接受
现在却欣然听下去了 ^^
我知道自己做得不够好
也非常清楚自己应该进步

也许我需要那份冲劲
才能超越现在的我
我可以做的更好 =]

我的梦想真的很大 ><
我不得不把握时机努力了
梦想一定要实现!!!!

梦想需要行动
成功需要坚持
不能堕落了!!!

everybody fight !!
Go GO go ~~~

= 放下 =

2010-07-01T05:40:00.000-07:00

当我有心事
我找不到人来诉

家里很冷清
我的心也一样

对象
我选择了
亲爱的朋友

原来把心里压着的事说出来
那感觉是一种释放
我允许泪水再次滑落
只希望一切能够结束

然而
心里还是系着那份情
我恢复不来

我想努力
但是我自己也很疑惑
为什么
这次不一样

这也是为何
每每让我记录下来的心情
都是“悲”的

我知道
我们都很痛
但是我还需要时间
去忘怀

师傅说：要学会放下
我仍在揣摩其中的解脱

我反复思考
我是在为自己找借口吗
但是无奈没有源头

我没有生气
我是受伤
伤口痊愈需要时间
也许伤的太深
请原谅我挪后更多的时间

伤你并不会让我快活
也许我用的方法错了
我只想得到弥补
我忍受了那么久
难道想得到你那一句话那么难吗？

到底是你变了
还是我
我越来越摸不透我以前认识的他

目前
恢复还需要等待
我只希望我不会再有机会觉得自己是傻瓜

沉默的逆转
尴尬会是结局吗？

我的心
好像被掏空了
多了一份恐惧和担忧
淡淡的...

i am sorry i hv to vent again

2010-06-16T06:46:00.000-07:00

everyone got his/her limit
i call it as limit line
he may be not good in temper, his limit line is too low
she may be too kind to everything and everybody,her limit line is way too high
then
where is mine?

i always wonder when i will bomb out
why can i stay so still?
may be because i hv no choice

is my problem?
can u open ur eyes?
how u treat me ...is a suffering
i should laugh at myself
for being silly
i am too easy-going...to forget the past

about the past,
i appreciated ur forgiveness
i mean "appreciated"
but u owe me too many forgiveness
u know? too many too many~

among ppl
TRUST mean everything
u hv no idea how it hurt me
everything u hv done to me

how come i will be tat stupid
to trust u tat u r changing

those ppl changed when they r in their ages
when is ur turn?
never?
i think YES

i was sad because i care
i cried because i hv been treated unjustly

i am mad on myself
think wisely
i really being tortured physically
the ppl should be treated like this is who have made too many mistake
did i?
ur thoughts are always misunderstandings
but u never realize tat

i am tired
tired with u
however i cant harden my heart

i hate being so weak to be in tears
i hate i can say nothing while crying
i hate making my fren sympathize me
i hate being a burden to my fren which is totally caused by u

if u dun like this 'disturbing'
y dont u let me drive?
speechless?
u r just a jerk who want to control me forever

i am sorry to use tat word
am i supposed to say u r worrying too much?
it sounds nicer
mm~ how nice it sounds...
well,if the cap fits..

i am definitely tat person who dun know how to dress my face up
i am sorry for being unhappy
r u satisfy?
i am so so so disappointed on u

i really feel tired and even Sick
u better not to over the line
i dunno whether i will be insane..out of my mind
and maybe i will have the courage ~

xoxo
may my frustration rest in peace

Cappucino

2010-05-31T04:08:00.000-07:00

现在喝的cappucino和之前的感觉不一样了
之前认为是这样
其实不然

以前以为自己喜欢的是cappucino
原来自己不知道真正的cappucino是什么味道的

也许
我会喜欢高贵典雅的blue mountain
抑或者是苦涩成熟的espresso
应该不会是甜腻腻的latte吧
mocha又会带来怎么样的情怀

我到底喜欢什么
我只知道自己喜欢的是coffee

我以为我忘了
但是我还是想念
我还爱着
几年前的那一杯cappucino
曾经让我上瘾、情不自禁的cappucino

我很痴情吧

很难接受新的事物
变了口味的cappucino掳获不了我的心

说不定
日后我会投身于咖啡的天下
我享受的是一杯white coffee 送给我的闲情时光
我向往的是望着陪伴的友人、享受泡沫柔情的时光

我。。老了 =]

2010-04-18T07:20:00.000-07:00

wat a boring day ~
going to sleep soon ^^
hapi ending for today ~~

tomorrow is holiday !!
YIPPEE XD

是吗·是啊

2010-04-07T04:47:00.000-07:00

对啊
巴不得挣开束缚
恨不得快点长大

这些话
说了好多遍吧
都闷了

刘轩说的对
束得太紧会有反作用

刘墉做的对
给予刚刚好的自由
让他体验外面的世界
慢慢放开绳子

老鹰妈妈是多么伟大
从小就启发孩子
让它从跌倒中学习独立

不如这样说吧
你太疼我了
太保护我了
但是你可曾想想我总有一天会长大
你要怎么办呢？

不会陪着我出去闯吧？
可以想象你会多么紧张。。。
为何不让我早点适应呢？
何必到时才来瞎着急呢？

现在的我啊
已经习惯了
多么可悲的事实
我竟然视之为一种习惯。。。

是年龄作祟吗？
我的野心正想破框而出
是正常的心理吗？
我毕竟..已经是18岁了..
羡慕同龄在过的生活
不应该？

谁可以给我答案？

我厌恶总是在抱怨的自己
不要了
再也不要了

也许她们说的对
我总是不会反抗
对啊
我不会 ><

怎么办呢
会有反作用哦
能想象日后的我。。会如何反弹吗？
哈哈~(是冷笑..)

嗯
我是外向的
“向外”的
闷太久了

他说的对
也许有些孩子非常希望这样的保护
但是
事事都应适可而止~~
做父母
不容易^^

2010-04-04T06:06:00.000-07:00

well~~got a big big face ^^

i though it will last longer
but he gave up too fast
nothing anymore

i went to HELP yesterday
with tiny +* and carmen
didnt take photo
but is memorable^^
miss the food...the long path...and the potato chips =p

we backed to school way earlier as we failed to proceed to final round ><
anyway
we are lucky enough to be in second round ^^
great day with those gals~~
known them more XD

backed to home earlier too
i am so sick to be at home
always desperate to go out ><
come on, i am 18 years old, man~~
i shouldn't be in this life ...
i am adult !!!

couldn't blame for being at this situation
i am always different with others..
when could i be maturer?
i am forced to admit that i am a covered-flower~
but i dun want to be !!

okay~~stop complaining...
i just wish my life will change someday ^^

集训营

2010-03-18T21:27:00.000-07:00

人生中第二次的集训
带着如此大的兴奋
可是临时却病倒了><
真是败给他~~

拖着病恹恹的身体。。坚持着对还未破晓的天空说：“加油！”
该准备的都准备好了
我可以说是得空的^^
看着他们享受我们为他们准备好、设计好的一切
欣慰涅。。。

看着寥寥无几的出席人数
有点无奈。。。
但是开心他们的选择是明智的
至少他们学到东西
带着慢慢的收获回家^^

看着娇生惯养的他们
全身充满了文学气息
要应付起来不容易啊。。。
但是每个人的内心都有热情
一番绞尽脑汁后
他们即使慢热，也都开始积极的动起来了～

第一天
流了一身汗后病情好了很多
没办法忘记那寒冷的课室和寝室
把自己裹得紧紧地
睡得不错^^

到老师家冲凉
是另一种体验
舒服~~ ^^

检讨后仍不能睡觉><
练了动力十足的舞蹈
最累人的舞啊~~
还好很快上手^^

第二天
早上最早起的非我莫属啦
嘿嘿
精神状态好了许多
一大清早就要跳舞
汗汗汗""

一整天的课程有点闷
我把自己窝在编辑室内准备课程
至少不用在活动课室里冷得发抖^^

最耗时的就是“夜间寻宝”的准备啦
费尽心思
徘徊在“刺激”与“保护”的矛盾之间
我们都处处为他们着想
我们的会员可真是幸福啊~

这一天过得好漫长
咖啡。。饼干。。。好悠闲的生活^^
期待的时刻来了
火锅~~
没有期待的那种感觉
但是吃得还不错^^

夜间寻宝。。。呵呵
黑暗中只有一堆尖叫声
好刺激...
我带的组领先了^^
跑上跑下好累人~~

最难忘的是晚上
我们谈天几乎是到通宵
杯面。。。咖啡。。。
而且还有额外的娱乐活动^^
除了开心还是开心 XD

第三天
终于要结束了
之前怎么都没有homesick的感觉啊？
要回家最想念的是我的床^^
沉重的心情度过最后的活动
这天的团康确实搞笑
多亏了毕业校友的配合^^

想想三天也过得很快
蛮想念可以过夜的那种感觉
尤其是我们做主——我们去欺负别人的那种快感><
我还意外获颁一只小黑猫呢!!
爱它~~

下一次的团康营就指望你们了
期待。。。只希望不会胎死腹中><

明年的集训营也好，生活营也好
别忘了算我一份哦^^
你们会做得更好的!!!

怎么办
开始想念了
却只能等待~~

2010年2月4日

2010-02-04T04:26:00.000-08:00

今天
终于能留下来篮球赛了
等到总决赛才支持
内疚。。。
不好意思啊~~~
就算是今天
天公还是不给我面子><
下雨。。被逼延赛~

其实我自己是很喜欢这类型的活动
很喜欢这份团结、为自己人欢呼的热情
自己会high起来 =P
甚至希望能够参与各项庆功宴、大食会、烧烤聚会、生日派对等等
我会更努力争取这些机会的
相信我吧^^
不想再做pilot =]

真的很庆幸自己是商一的^^
有点骄傲的感觉~哈哈!!
阿雯（第一次酱叫=D）~你是我的偶像!!!

可惜
雨还没停我就回家了
没办法拍张照留念
顺便证明我的存在(在高三商一的啦啦队中)=P

明天的比赛
我也没办法留了><
只想在这里喊多一次：
商一!!加油!!

【有点唠叨
纯粹发发牢骚><
嘿嘿~】

今天玩得好开心
虽然时间不长
但是吃吃东西、吹吹水、逛逛街~
还吃了半价的冰淇淋!!^^
开心涅~~
但是没得拍照!!!TT
这么难得...呜呜呜~~
我就像个小孩在那里乱跳+埋怨XD
今天的旅程~~嗯~~唔~~~
虽然一直被别人讲丢脸也会继续做回自己^^
喜欢“真性情”哦~~~
好兴奋><
喝了咖啡到现在还是很兴奋

Believe tat love is outhere ~

2010-01-16T22:16:00.000-08:00

time flies
One Tree Hill season6 hv already come to an end~

still remember the meaningful sentences tat always knock me up
tat is y i am crazy about OTH seasons....
can't wait for season 7 ^^

"take a look at the mirror, see who's looking back.Is the person you want to be?"

"Is someone tell u tat u cant? or you wont? "
"because u can!"

"happiness does not come from power and money,but good friends and family"

"believe dreams come true every day,because they did!"

"u deserve to be happy,believe tat!"

OTH season7 without Lucas Scott ans Peyton Scott and also their cute daughter--Sawyer Brooke Scott ~

结束了^^

2009-12-15T20:19:00.000-08:00

没有预期般的兴奋
就这样淡淡地结束了
bye~ SPM ^^
也许唯一重获的，
是不需要再为明天担心、不需要总是带着压力去微笑~

然而
看到姐姐拿到如此亮眼的成绩
开始为自己担心
开始怀疑自己的能力
由一开始就失去了的把握
还是要等到3月才能知道答案

我知道需要给自己肯定
但是往往懂得劝勉别人
自己却做不到
也许那是真的：“说得容易，那是因为你未曾尝试”

好像有点太悲观了。。。
不应该这样

真心期待
期待的才会实现嘛

无聊的假期
有什么可以分散我的注意力吗？
答案是有的！ ^^

我在努力啃完蕾蕾接我的《NEW MOON》
看了那部电影
好兴奋！好开心！！！！
虽然演技不怎么样
但是我喜欢的是他的故事^^
好sweet~~~~~

看完了电影
看起书来也会比较容易吧~
呵呵。。。

* 最近
我开始学习了
学习用耳去听英文
努力尝试不要去看字幕
我相信我在进步中
哈！替我加油吧！
我可以的！

新标题·新想法

2009-12-07T00:06:00.000-08:00

有一个地方
名为Service & Repair
是一个修理坏掉的东西的地方
我好想去目睹目睹每个人心中的那个地方。。。
是长什么样子的~~~

bring some broken thing here and fix it
希望我的地盘
有一天可以成为这么样的一个地方
for每一个人
是遥远。。。但伟大的梦想^^

**************************************************************************

好不容易
只剩下最后一科啦^^
华文排在最后
而且还是一个星期后
真是怪可怜的。。。

最近发现自己表达能力不好了
读太多马来文
就忘了华文
是时候进补进补一下了><

其实相隔几天才考几科
感觉上压力没那么大
甚至过于轻松==
真有点担心呢！
电视机总是伴着我度过每一个通宵的凌晨~~
看了看
我的部落格已有一个月的灰尘了=P

======================================================================================

最后一天
总不怎么兴奋
但还是该好好计划一下
我有蛮多约会的哦^^
期待ing....

祝福.....

生活方式

2009-10-21T07:40:00.000-07:00

最近好像有蛮多任务的。。。
闲空的生活伴随着的是慵懒的身躯 @@
开始停课了
有点颓废的生活...
好想排除自己坏的全部~

面对一切
动力总是会迟到==
而我
总是无奈地望着时针在动
我想
24小时，真的不够><

控制自己
说来容易
只是4个字嘛...
但是
每每说到做不太到 ><

结束之前
欣赏自己积极、乐观的一点^^
凡是只要你真心去想，
那么你就会有...

相信吗？
试试看嘛
比如说：
我希望明天提起劲来完成该做的事
我会催眠自己，应该说是激化自己
对自己说：“我明天会提起劲来的！”“我明天会提起劲来的！”一直重复。。。
我相信
那真的有效^^

p/s:感谢、感恩一切...付诸在我身上的...尤其是那难得的机会...我会珍惜，也会遵守诺言^^

今天

2009-10-11T23:24:00.000-07:00

考试
无聊的英文grammar
为了那两页纸
花了45分钟去考试
15分钟左右就做完了。。。
接着就发呆==

靠窗的位子
看到学校外面的组屋
组屋旁有一个兴都庙之类的东西
棚中央开了个洞
伸出来的是雄伟的大树

我细细观察那棵树
树枝挂着细细长长的。。。不知怎么称呼><
是植物，但是不知带什么名堂 =p
没注意看还真的没发现它们的恐怖
为大树增添阴深深的感觉...
导演们
物色拍摄景点时
真是不能不佩服他们的细微观察能力

我看了看大树的叶子类型
小小的、浓密的~
“这会是什么树呢？” 我想了一想...
科学家研究植物
是不是一看到叶子的类型就说得出它的名堂呢？
好厉害~

看见粗壮的树干
他的年纪也不小了吧^^
绿油油的叶子
突然想到
每棵树每天都在吸收养分
每天都在生存
每天都成长着。。。
我惊觉：他们都不是非生物啊..
一天天的过着生活~~
默默的。。
我为它套上了一个名字：默老
沉默老化着的大树^^

我发现
我很爱大自然^^

哪条路。。。

2009-08-24T00:56:00.000-07:00

生活、人生是天赐给人类——智慧的动物的礼物，
喜欢上他的人活得自在，
不喜欢这份礼物的人形同浪费，
人的智慧，
就是用在选择自己的路。

人生地图

2009-08-19T06:35:00.000-07:00

一张白纸，

常喻为小孩的思想，

但那张白纸不可能伴随着小孩成长。

每个人的人生都是一张地图，

就像人体DNA般独一无二。

地图，

不可能只有一条直路，

那么，

人生有可能只有快乐没有悲伤吗？

答案可想而知。

温室小花虽然总是受到保护，

但是他们无法独立成长。

人生如此跌跌撞撞，

唯有跌倒后的痛更令人惊醒。

正如科学原理，

病菌的一次侵袭，

人体随即自然产生抗体，

而将来就能把不知好歹的细菌挡在门外。

人生不也一样吗？

暂时的失败，

将会迎接成功的到来，

过度的保护只会让人无法在积极进步中的社会立足，

甚至成为被淘汰的平庸者。

奈何

2009-08-10T05:36:00.000-07:00

最近的生活
不想积极却没办法不依
一大堆紧凑的计划是别人准备的
虽说里头也有我的一点贡献
但是我明白我自己是没办法守在安分守己的框框内~

很想随时鞭策自己
很想狠狠地骂自己
很想... 找回动力~

很讨厌看到现在镜子前的自己。。。
明明眼前就有很适合的气氛
但是就是没办法把压力转变成动力的自己；
心里知道自己不能承受后果
但却没办法克服内心的不习惯的自己

我想我习惯了这样的临时才在乎~

不知所措
是对这种情况有点夸张的形容
但是
我真的需要一些。。。推手^^

人
难免会向往天天都自在轻松
人
会理所当然地避开眼前的烦恼
人
总是会有只能说服自己的藉口

接下来，
人生不会停下来教训你，
时间不会原谅你，
而你仅有的，
剩下痛恨和内疚，甚至是剪不断、理还乱的心结

而我
身上已有一次又一次之前留下的疤痕
但却不知反省
老早提醒自己却没办法在关键时刻打醒自己。。。

一个巨噬大口在前面张牙舞爪
我坐着轮轴慢慢往前行
我害怕甚至发抖
奈何
我什么时候才会站起来咬紧牙根奋斗?
我。。什么时候才能改掉矛盾的自己？

小柔，加油啊~~~~^^

孰不知

2009-08-02T05:21:00.000-07:00

有时候
电影、连续剧里演的
似是夸张但同时也触心
只是看你曾经领悟过与否

戏里演着
她很爱他
但他已经有了别一个她
她预料得到
但她宁愿不查出真相，也不拆穿
因为她很怕自己承受不了
因为她知道：“不知道比知道来得好”~

电视机前的我
曾经无奈地笑她为什么那么懦弱
而傻傻地为已经不爱自己了的他付出

但是
今天
我明白了

那天
无意间
真的是没有别的意思，随着心去做
孰不知
我发现了我不想知道的东西...

我心很痛
比预期来的痛
我本来不想哭
但是脑海里一直想
好像在呼唤着我的泪水
我不知道
为了什么？

我就是这样
当时很不喜欢、很生气、或者是很不爽
但是过了一段时间
你问我为什么
我忘了><
我是个
不记仇的人...

我很难再面对他
很难再像以前那样...密切
我也不想那样

也许
我需要时间

可是
不知道是多久的时间

想不到要用什么字来形容
我很难释怀?
还是我太介意?

要怎样
才能回到从前?

课堂冥想

2009-07-22T07:31:00.000-07:00

没有东西一早就存在着，
也没有一样东西会突然消失。。

东西
只有不断地转变、转换着

科学的道理
用来描绘人生
没有反差
但是有别的一番。。。领悟

用之为爱情上色
没有一丁点儿的出入
反而显得无比贴切
还无形中
发现到爱情最真的情感。。。

灯泡一亮
眼角膜换了
看事情的角度
又多了几个形状^^

对我了解多一点^^

2009-07-08T07:35:00.000-07:00

遊戲規則：
1、被點名的人在我空間將這篇文章轉載到自己空間中，然後在編輯，
刪去我的答案，要在自己的Q空間裡寫下自己的答案，然後傳給其他人，
列出個需要回答問題的人的名字，通知對方被點名了，
被點名者不得拒絕回答問題，完成遊戲的人將會永遠得到大家的祝福。
2 、這個人要在自己的Q空間裡註明是從哪裡接到問題的，
並且再想一個題目傳給其他個人，讓幸福的遊戲繼續下去。
3 、不能回傳，否則犯規！
4 、被點到名字的人將得到大家的祝福，並且所有的美麗願望都會在不久後實現。
5、請點10個老朋友,不准不點，點完後請通知那10個老朋友他們被點！

被点者：Jinny, Saleisha, black jubjub, turtlez,✖♀ЯũŁмч♂✖, 洁杉，俊豪，风少，敏萤，巧薇。

★.PART ONE
Q01、你的大名？
★柔颖/小柔

Q02、你認為什麼才算是真正幸福？
★与自己相爱的人互相包容，过着两人都期望的生活。

Q03、你們覺得友情重要還是愛情重要，為什麼？
★两者都非常重要！

Q04、你相信天長地久嗎？
★相信只要内心愿意，没什么是不可能的。

Q06、你現在過得快樂麼？
★快乐，但总会有“更快乐”出现。^^

Q07、如果有秘密，你真的會做到坦白的告訴對方嗎？
★当然，两者在一起，就不应该怕对方接受与否。

Q08、喜歡小Baby嗎？
★喜欢他们的纯真、、简单、可爱。^^

Q09、覺得友情是永遠的麼？
★当然啊，但要视那朋友的意愿而言。

Q10、希望自己多大結婚？
★不想当高龄产妇，总觉得年轻较适合。

Q11、你會為他做自己從來不會做的事情？
★纳入考虑范围，只要不太违背原则都行。

Q12、你覺得女生捲髮好還是直發好？
★要看脸型、年龄和性格吧。

Q13、最想去哪裡旅遊？
★欧美国家。

Q14、一輩子都不會忘記的事？
★快乐时光。

Q15、如果愛一個人，是不是要拼命挽回TA？
★我想，会分开，一定是有不适合的地方，那在一起已不再幸福，又何必勉强？除非一切都是逼与无奈。。。

Q16、看到天空你想起的第一個人是誰？
★乾妈。^^(她名叫彩虹)

Q17、你會愛TA一輩子麼？
★只有适合、认定了的的他。

Q18、喜歡你的人和你喜歡的人，你會選哪個？
★我喜欢的人而那人也喜欢我。^^

Q19、你會以何種方式表現你對他（她）的愛？
★爱她的优，接受他的缺，是往心里地接受。

Q20、如果看到自己最愛的人熟睡在你面前你會做什麼？抱著他？
★望着他、附上甜甜的笑^^

Q21、如果你想痛扁一個人，你希望那個人是？
★过度约束别人者。

Q22、你會後悔過自己的決定嗎？
★曾经。

Q23、現在最迷什麼？
★听歌。

Q24、你是好孩子嗎？
★暗地里不是，但大部分的我，是^^

Q25、覺得愛情和麵包哪個重要？
★两者并重。

Q26、如果你失戀了你會怎麼樣？
★视情况而定。^^

Q27、如果你的BF（GF）經常不回家的話，你會怎樣？
★我会尝试去了解原因，再决定。

★.PART TWO
01、是誰傳給你這份問卷的？
★难得一见、充满文字气息的男生，顺辉。==

02、你們認識多久呢？
★2年有余。^^

03、TA對你來說重要嗎？
★任何朋友对我而言都很重要。

04、你與TA的關係是？
★有共同点、可以谈很多的朋友。^^

05、請問TA的興趣是？
★写随性文章，但不是有拘束的那类。^^

06、你覺得TA的個性如何？
★满腹不舍的回忆，抱着空白的心情过日子。。。但，很欣赏他的幽默与放得开^^

07、TA在你心目中是幾分？
★除了考试成绩，分数无法衡量/代表一切。

08、睡覺前第一件事？開風扇？喝水？
★刷牙！呵呵~然后设好闹铃，放好电话。

09、你的偶像？
★之前固定的是周杰伦，但是后来发现，我是“视歌不视人”的，而且，我很容易被touch><,如果要list出来，就不是偶像了。

10、你喜歡的季節？
★四季都爱。

11、你打工麼？
★没能。

12、打工次數？
★不曾。

13、你想去的國家？
★欧美国家，日本雪景。^^

14、你討厭什麼樣的個性？
★大男人主义、脾气暴躁、没上进心。。。

15、你會抽煙麼？
★超憎恨烟。

16、你會喝酒麼？
★不懂呃。。。

17、你常哭麼？
★蛮的。><

18、你常笑麼？
★可以这样说。

19、你喜歡去哪玩？
★能让自己快乐的地方。

20、去玩時喜歡自己一個人去麼？
★很多人都懂，我非常抗拒自己一人的感觉。

21、是假日時你都睡到幾點？
★8点左右,去巴刹。。。吃早餐><

22、今天的天氣是？
★阴凉、凉爽。^^

53、你們知道最遠的距離是什麽嗎？
★我觉得那句“世上最远的距离，是我在你身边，可是你却不知道我爱你”是蛮深入人心的。^^

★.PART THREE
54、我的BGM好听么？
★什么东东? ><

55、你的皮包里有什么说说吧
★呃，该有的都有。^^

56、你生命中最重要的人是？
★还没到那种阶段来谈吧?

57、啥东西是你喜欢吃的呀？
★我很嘴馋，爱吃得很多。^^

58、现在有喜欢的人吗？
★有。

59、你還喜歡他(她)嗎?
★还。

60、你觉得我坏吗？
★了解不够深，哈哈^^

之前就觉得把自己希望的事写下来，真心期待，是真的真心哦~
愿望就会实现^^

我是真的相信的。。。
所以
真心许愿，你就能得到上天的眷顾^^

我与字典有个约会^^

2009-07-02T22:03:00.000-07:00

最近假期没事做
就下定决心
复习一下英文^^

前途茫茫
英文真的很重要
尤其是统考英文，没A不行。。。
真的需要加把劲儿 ><
时间不多了。。

之前补习的“养料”都被我翻了出来
我那本笔记本也重出江湖了^^
我发现我一旦开始专注一样事情
我的热情就冒出来了。。。
在做之前，
一直觉得很懒；
做了之后，
开始兴致勃勃了^^

幸好我们家的字典都是免费的
否则厚厚的一本会花上好几十块><

查查英文单字
意外发现很多有趣的东西
发现原来表面上的一样东西
也涵盖好多种意思
想在这里分享分享^^

添油站：

fit的用途
（1）think/see fit（to do）决定，决心
—— Do as you think fit.
—— He doesn't see fit to adopt my suggestion.

（2） give sb (somebody) a fit 做某事而使某人大吃一惊

（3） have a fit 大惊，大怒
—— She almost had a fit when she saw the bill.

很神奇吧？平时都没发现这些用法。。。

row 的本意除了是一行、一列、一排，它也有动词的用法：

（1）划（船）
—— Can you row? 直接包含了划船的意思。。
—— We are rowing Cambridge in the next race. 直接包含了与剑桥的一场划船比赛。。

别的名词用法：

（2）大的噪声，吵闹
—— How can I read with all this row going on?
—— Could you please male less row?

（3）大声和激烈的争论，吵架
—— I think they've had a row now.

（4）受批评，挨骂等
—— She gave me a row for being late.
(这个很好用^^)

row 如果跟着with sb一起用的话
就是（动词）大声争吵的意思
—— They are always rowing （也就是with each other）
—— rowing (with his employers)over money.

暂时分享这两种我觉得蛮特别的
下次再来添油吧^^

停课中。。。

2009-07-01T06:08:00.000-07:00

好闷的假期 ><
之前期待停课是因为觉得上课很无聊
可是现在
在家里不知道有什么可以做
这就是所谓的“无所事事”~~~

昨天
在家里开了小小演唱会 ^^
好relax哦!
希望不会虐待邻居们 =P

今天
因为姐姐这个学期体育要考的是乒乓
所以我们在家里打乒乓 ^^
好好玩
但是不够熟练。。。
而且家里只有一个乒乓拍
唯有随便拿了一个板代替 ^^

打完了
我们建议一起去跑步 ^^
我们一直很期待可以去做做运动
爸爸终于答应了~
我们打算去Tun Razak的那个花园
就是运动会体育场那边 ^^

在去之前
我们还去了midah的Tesco那里
爸爸要见一个人
我们在那里到处逛逛
闻到食物飘香
肚子好饿~
毕竟没有吃午餐 ><

到了那里
很熟悉
因为去年的运动会
我们在那里留下了脚印^^
一进到公园
我们看到警卫骑着马儿到处巡逻
有点耐人寻味 ><
怎么在逛公园呢？是维持次序吗？
不过也没怎么吃惊。。。因为去年看过了~~^^

绕了公园一圈
但是多半是用走的><
而且小腿前面莫名的作痛
即使用走的也是在痛
不过到了终点休息一下就没事了
还好^^

回到家
轮流冲凉
出外用餐。。。因为制水><
我们已经成了Teratai那里的常客了
吃得有点厌了。。。
不过依然爱着那里的ice lemon tea ^^

摸着胀胀的胃回家
带着一份满足
回家享受假期^^

Taylor

2009-06-28T06:26:00.000-07:00

家长日
不需要听老师的“苦口婆心”^^
可以一大早就去Taylor College“探险”
口头上说的是校队代表去比赛（Accounting Quiz）
但事实上我们是抱着玩的心情去那里。。。

之前看到行程中包括了一些讲座。。茶会。。。午餐
那时候就很期待了^^
因为很难得嘛~

原本是由黄兆基老师载我们去的
可是他的车子偏偏在这天出了状况
所以我们就搭德士去了><
好久没搭德士了^^
不过走了蛮远的路程才去到大路。。。
不过不久后就截到德士了~

这个德士司机是华人
可是讲的是广东话
还好他不像我们第一次截停的德士般漫天开价~~
那个德士竟然不走meter
还说要RM30!!!!
老师一口就拒绝他了^^

我、维、枫同一辆的士，
同班嘛。。。
这个心肠好的司机是走meter的
而且比老师那辆来得便宜

井底之蛙的我
发现了两件事：
1) 德士的车牌全都是HWC的 ^^
2) 德士是可以开resit的!!!!

呵呵
大发现^^

去到taylor
老师随后便到了
看到来自很多学校的参赛者都到了
而且参赛者都是一大群的
我们学校只有5人 ><
他们都很认真地复习着。。。
内疚 ><

比赛进行前
我的肚子已经发出警号了
可是我没理它
等到进入Multi Purpose Hall
开始时没什么事
可是到了开始作答时
我开始不对劲了><
随便乱圈
一心只想着快点作答完毕、快点交卷
以便可以上厕所。。。

唉
这次的经历怎么和上次我考数学那天一样？
还好我并没那么重视这次比赛==

比赛后是茶会时间
也是我们期待的时候^^
很特别的tea break~~
喝的是自己加奶的coffee
不想加糖
终于喝到不加糖、带点奶香的苦涩咖啡
好有感觉~~

tea break过后
被尊孔那很热情的带队老师叫去
我想他应该很热爱华教
一直倡导说很难的三大独中可以聚在一起
还叫我们交流交流
不过。。。
我们是含蓄的^^哈哈～
最后拍了一张“独中大合照”就回到讲堂去了
唯独缺了坤成女中~~

接下来是讲座会
请来了CPA Australia的讲师
不愧是经验当道
他通过一项团体活动让我们从中学习
真的很特别~~~~

介绍了Taylor即将迁往的新家
差点儿就被他们先进的设施吸引去了><
成绩揭晓的时刻到了
我们早就没抱有希望
甚至是一丁点儿也没有^^

而眼看国中就快独领风骚之际
中华的一位气质女生也得奖了^^
wow~~
引以为荣。。。
在学校组中
中华也拿了冠军!!!!!!
好开心^^

当然
也很内疚。。
花了学校的钱来玩
却没尽力。。
但是，
之前不知道有奖学金可以拿 ><
如果早知道
我一定会努力k书。。。><
后悔～～～
所以跟老师讲好我们下次还要再来 ^^
希望可以。。。

颁完奖
本来是要大合照的
可是他们还想没专心在听
全部走光了==
所以我们也跟着移步到multi purpose hall享用午餐^^
很丰富。。也很好吃^^
可是老师要我们早走
所以赶着吃 ><
很不好受。。。
也没有交流到
面对前面的中华学生
真的不知道要讲什么
只会一味地傻笑 ><

幸好有早走
我们走了好一段路才找到大路
等了许久都没有德士的踪影。。。
好不容易找到一辆
司机是讲得一口流利英文的马来同胞
他要我们带路
搞得我们冒了一头苦水
毕竟对subang了解不深
还好他指的是到了roundabout那里才带路==
呼～""

塞车真的是折腾人啊~~~
可能是lunch time的关系
塞了很久才看到坤成
可是到了学校前面那一段路被那恼人的交通灯作弄><
仅仅走了2辆车就转黄灯!!!!
好气好气。。。
眼前就是学校却不能向前走的滋味。。

总算在2点前上了老豆的车
回程觉得肚子还在胀
所以说
吃饭要细嚼慢咬
我不介意别人笑我吃饭很慢的^^
哈哈
而且吃得慢才不会胖哦 ^^

Taylor College
好一个经验之旅
回味中~~~ ^^

心理准备

2009-06-23T05:07:00.000-07:00

即使早已知道那2分是扣定了
即使知道那2分影响是难以想象的大
但是
到了面对那一刻
心里还是难免会有承受不了的感觉
真希望表面上的我是发自内心的
真希望我是那么的豁达
真希望自己别太在意

可是
我还是败给自己了
我很担心
担心该如何跟家长开口
担心别人的眼光
我知道这些担心很不应该
我只能说：短时间内摆脱不了~

早期听到的一句话：
“如果早就做好了面对坏结局的心理准备，那你就不会失望；
如果没有失望，就不会得到教训；
如果没经历那教训，就不能从中学习；
没有学习，就没有成长。”

也许
我的心理准备还不够全面
也许
表面上的，始终掩饰不了内心的感觉
也许
我未能学会掌握自己
也许
我太了解自己了

白玫瑰般的心情

面对那突如其来的惊喜
我想怪他
表面上
他应该是不知道他的“杰作”，
但也排除不了是他藏起内疚，不好意思面对的可能性。。。

我想
我要走过去开玩笑地一句：
“你看你，还我没了2分~”吗？
我应该吗？

我及时拉住自己了
我知道
增加他的罪恶感有意义吗？
让他自责、内疚是我的本意吗？
我不要
我不想成为制造烦恼的人
我不想在别人跌倒后仍不停揭开他的伤疤。。。

我“应该”了解他
他是很容易自责的人
他的内心也相当脆弱
既然不能补偿
那。。。就算了吧!

很庆幸自己没那么冲动
让时间冲淡记忆
两人各处一张画的一角
谁都不知谁在想什么~

首次近距离接触^^

2009-06-20T07:22:00.000-07:00

本以为今天的户外考察是参观电台的一切运作
但是很意外能够像个小粉丝般看着张智成的“小小演唱会”

其实很早就发现自己很容易动情
今天。。。
之前没什么注意有关张智成的点滴
至到今年他终于回来了^^
享受听他的歌
虽然只是一两首><
发现自己听歌很不“专”
没仔细听出歌手的技巧、
歌手的唱歌实力、
歌手如何发挥一首歌。。。

今天。。。
看到张智成的现场功力
发现自己真的是那类会被男生音乐才华迷倒的女生 ><
不止如此
可能身边遇到的有才华的男生不多
所以看到有才华的男生都会很仰慕
不管是哪一方面~~

那是好事还是坏事？

之前爱上萧敬腾是在看了他的live表演过后
在radio听他的歌真的没什么感觉
看到他现场拉高音...的表情、过程...
就~~有一点疯掉了...

American Idol season 8 时
那位Adam Lambert也是很爱拉嗓子
几乎每一场表演 ><
我。。。也是。。。疯掉了。。。

但是要澄清一点
不是任何拉嗓子的歌手都一样哦
那种吵到让人无法忍受的歌
我是很难接受的 ><

虽然今天的张智成不是哪一类型
但是看到他唱歌
真的会很冧~~~ ^^
也许
他的帅也是其中的原因之一 >< 哈。。。(害羞)

至于林家俊
我很爱听广东歌
所以听他唱广东歌时开始疑惑
为什么他不出名？ =p
他的声线 >< 也是实力派歌手
加上他的腼腆模样
邻家男孩？呵呵~
期待他的新歌...^^

在988的studio里面
我们一堆“小绿”坐在旁边的地上
我觉得蛮庆幸的
可以近距离看到他们的一举一动、他们的表情
而我的位子
也算蛮靠近的。。。
不然就不会被他发现 ><
有点糗，但很开心 ^^ (神经线充血)

当时的我
真的好希望手上可以有一架相机
即使是手机也好 ><
可以近距离拍到他的真情流露...

很多事情就是这样
一定会有一些可惜之处~~

988搬到One Utama
《音乐耍live》
真的很感谢这次机会
（虽然没学到什么 ><）

但是更认识张智成了
也发掘了林家俊
看到自己的“容易动情”似乎很严重><

日后你们就数数看吧!
我有多少次因看到现场演唱而爱上一位歌手。。。
这也是我很爱听/看现场的原因 ^^

p/s:今天张智成很乐意地给我们捉下他搞笑的一面
帅帅之余还带了幽默
有机会upload跟大家分享 ^^

Leisure Mall~~

2009-06-09T23:51:00.000-07:00

今天终于可以出来玩了
可是没什么时间

首先
我们就宅宅地去逛popular ^^
不知道要买什么
像苍蝇酱乱逛
看到一本包装蛮美且价钱不算贵的novel==
想到假期很闷可以看书，加上家里没有书好看><
可是又想到假期都快完了，以后就没时间看了...
想来想去不懂要不要买是好
就抱着它走了^^边走边考虑...

还逗留在英文区时
我们无聊无聊去找狗狗的书来看
找下看有什么狗的种类
看到好多种样子都差不多一样 ><
名字都很复杂...

去了别区
文学区...
可爱的蕾去找九把刀的书
我介绍了一本给她（之前看过觉得很有兴趣）
可是价钱都不便宜...
摸下望下就继续乱兜~~
看到很多抓住我眼球的书
可是都价钱不菲 ><
阅读，就这么难吗？

突然看到晶拿着一堆参考书走了前来
对，你没看错，他来这里的目的就是买参考书
好乖哦^^(但他自己承认会去做的机率是...)
突然
我看到他把那堆书随便乱塞在一个地方
以为发生什么事
原来打算先去买戏票==
我赶快把我手上的那本乱放在一边
我们没有丢弃了它们的意思
我们过后还是会回来认领的..

买了戏票
还好有晶的提醒，带了学生证
不然就想蕾那样
贵了整整4块钱~~~~
之后我们就去吃大餐了
在同一层，
好方便..
旺角餐厅~
总觉得那里的芝士焗饭怪怪的
但还是努力吃得差不多完^^
点菜和付钱都耗了不少时间
都因为那里的侍应生重不抬头望下四周...==

吃饱后随便逛了一逛
发现leisure mall其实很in哦~
好久没逛了...
再回popular ^^
好像书虫哦~~
我们没注意时间就继续在里面闲逛
我还在考虑要不要买时
发现了一本杂志
之前在理发店看过
觉得很有用
可是价钱有点贵><
我又抱起了它——考虑...
我问了很多次我的朋友..
还是没头绪~
走着走着...
我帮晶选了参考书回来
蕾神情淡定地告诉我们:就来2.45了~
吓死人了
我们看一看表
2.45！！！！
看戏时间
我们冲着去柜台
好长的龙~好慢的服务~
我紧张、犹豫不决...
终于接受她们的建议，都买下两本书~
耐心地等着付钱
很怕连广告时间都过了..
赶着上楼梯
还好离戏院不远^^

紧张地进了Room3
做好了
发现广告还有很多 ><
整整15分钟
唉~~~干嘛那么赶？
经验不足==

Terminator Salvation
因为之前的都没看过
所以一点都不了解
但是
故事还能看^^（这类电影不适合我）
我的心随着音响效果跳着
好刺激...
电影是有point的
但是怪有无聊成分~~(对我而言)

很怕电影超时
但是它却很守信哦^^说好3.45就是3.45。。哈哈！
觉得这商场很厉害
电影出口外就是洗手间
方便大众^^

我自己在speedy逛了一逛就回了（看不到One Tree Hill DVD ><）
她们在努力地找着minitoons ^^

回程...
一直回想着那电影的主角之一有点像David Beckham
但没他那般帅^^

总结今天
简单却又意思^^
难得可以出来玩、
与姐妹逛逛的感觉值得纪念~~
可惜没留下脚印
也没带走快乐的印证 ><

记载leisure mall半日游 =)

倒霉><

2009-06-08T06:06:00.000-07:00

今天
冒险去了远方
做朋友的车去shah alam 骑脚踏车~
一个小时的车程
在车上一直吹水...

到达目的地
去租脚踏车
选错车><
太高了（对我而言）
结果...

刚骑没多久
我在刚要上斜坡时连人带车“扑街”了...
鲜血直流，脱了一大块的皮><
洗了伤口
可是不管三七二十一继续骑~
结果伤口的血一直涌出...
不过没有大量

*就是这样*
其实我不只跌了那么一次
上坡、下坡、下车时、转弯时....
真的算不清我“扑街”了多少次了==
不知道是我今天倒霉运，还是我跟脚踏车前世打了仇结?

最麻烦的是上斜坡><
虽然下斜坡超超超爽!!!!
终于领悟到先甜后苦的滋味~~~
当支撑不住的时候我们就下车...用推的^^哈~
有点内疚让两位男生一直等笨头笨脑的我><

兜了几个花园~
终于可以回到原点...
放了脚踏车
本来想坐巴士再兜兜
可是要等
所以放弃回家了^^

一个小时车程
回到“司机”的家那他们要拿的
两处兜来又兜去
耗时><

过后去了“司机”妈妈的店放东西
我就去旁边的7-11加钱...
本来刚受伤时还没感觉到什么痛觉
可是走去7-11时开始走路一拐一拐地><

开始由我们带路进入太子园^^
去到我们家附近的麦当劳吃“超值餐”~~
没midah那里的那么美
可是很久没来吃了^^
好开心
看到稀奇的“茄汁妹”...

吃饱饱后就回家了
还好我会认路了^^
不说可能你不知,
我是百分百的路痴...
除非是很熟的路
否则我不会走><
担心以后驾车会迷路

回到家冲凉伤口刺痛><
草草地冲了一下...
还好还能走
不知道会不会发炎 >< 生脓 ><
God Bless Me....
真是“番薯”的一天~~

明天去玩了^^
祈祷一切顺利~~~

食

2009-06-06T21:34:00.000-07:00

最近不懂搞什么
食欲变超大~
平时胃口已经很大了，现在更惨不忍睹><
担心....假期回来后变大版小柔~~~~

先说说我的美食历险记吧^^
话说那天，
我第一次去吃牛扒 =)
也因为最近无辣不欢，
所以点了黑胡椒牛扒~~
那个餐厅不算高级，但是气氛很浪漫。。
听着光良的歌，一边玩扑克牌一边等上菜。。
结果发现，
他的黑胡椒一点都不辣><
一味的胡椒味难免会吃腻...
他的牛扒并没有偷工减料，但是却免费来了个×分熟
浪漫的灯光下没发现还好，但在姐姐“利眼”之下，发现了...
切切下，那可怜的牛竟在我们面前淌血~~~~
之前听说点牛扒的人通常都会要求7分熟。。也就是非全熟，
那眼前那一盘肉应该是正常可入口的，但基于对那间餐厅水准的质疑，
我放弃了最后那几片（虽然已经啃完了一大半）==

再怎么说，
这是难得的经验啦~
我好爱那里的yogurt drink哦~~
超好喝(无法忍受酸性饮料者切勿尝试)^^

再来话说昨天，
全家人到pandan mewah 那里的一间餐厅吃晚餐~~
也许是地点吸引不了人潮，
那间有许多分行的肉骨茶餐厅顾客竟寥寥无几...
我们首次观光那里是被他那干、湿肉骨茶之分所吸引，
由于我与我妈都爱吃辣，
所以点了一干一湿（湿for爸爸和姐姐）

果然没错，
干的肉骨茶是辣的。。。异常的辣。。。
麻到我舌头了，
很久没尝到这种程度的辣^^
当时身边的饮料都是热的，无法入口><
真的超恐怖~~~

不过过后回想，
那里的肉骨茶特别之余，也很好吃~~
可是因为太辣了所以没吃到什么，没办法填满我的胃...
之后去买了××，
说出来会有点内疚，
那是很容易致肥的食物~~
不说较好^^

哈~
两天都尝试了新的东西，
现在谈起都会觉得饿><
无法控制自己去找食...
希望可以靠运动来减重^^
替我加油吧~

我妈的那句
“你脸最近变得更有肉了耶”
深深刺进我心><
好大的打击哦~~

加油！小柔！

我自己

2009-05-31T05:56:00.000-07:00

这个假期
开始会很忙
不过
有点享受这种忙碌
我有怪癖吧？哈哈

本身是一个很爱往外跑的小孩
也就是说：我不爱呆在家里><
也许朋友讲的对
她说我被约束得越紧，越想疯个够
而我也真的很想狂放地抛脱“乖乖牌”的外壳
我会暗地里计划、我会与朋友合谋...
我甚至会表现得比管教不严的朋友来得“皮”...

很期待2011年
自己飞到外国
享受独立的生活
摆脱约束
跟一大班朋友享受年轻人该过的生活^^

有时我在想
我的青春黄金时期是不是就酱浪费了？
我不甘心
每个年龄都有他们该做的事情
你可以阻止得了表面上的，阻止不了心理上的发展

羡慕别人的同时
也会觉得庆幸自己的自律
但是，是不是被放得越松的孩子就不懂得自律？
不尽然~

能够了解父母的担心
我并不怪他们
只是
期待长大的日子、
越来越具挑战性的日子...

Halo -- Haley James Scott

2009-05-29T09:04:00.000-07:00

这一part是来自我很喜欢的一部连续剧One Tree Hill
简直为它疯狂...
她是主角之一
这首歌感觉很特别
每次脑海无端端都会浮现这首歌的旋律
听听看吧~~

David Cook -season 7

2009-05-29T08:43:00.000-07:00

是他
让我爱上这首歌
老歌><

相较之下，
他唱得rock中带柔
不是美国流行的吵杂rock歌手
这是他的特色，也是成为我偶像的原因^^

稚气?

2009-05-29T07:15:00.000-07:00

从言语中
可以看得出一个人的成熟与否

在表达自己的意见时
不正是需要所谓的重点吗？

当你想用言语刺痛对方的心
当你想面对面地指责做错事的人
能否请你论述有point？
能否请你别意气用事，把你不够成熟的思想豪无保留地展露出来？

视事论事，最先要屏弃私人感情
反之，只会让人不服
要人服气，首先自己要让自己有“料”~

领导能力，
就是能够让别人信服你，
相信你的指示，但并不是自我主张地盲从
若你不能让别人信服你，服从你，那你可以努力
可是，如果你总觉得自己是对的，把手指都指向别人，那你没资格当领导人

检讨自己何等重要。。
要用广角看世界
要用苍蝇眼睛看事物^^

记23/5/2009事

Warning_18禁!

2009-05-25T06:09:00.000-07:00

没看竟没发现我喜欢的这首歌...
是一位帅哥唱的^^
这首歌的旋律很特别
不过....好像是很久之前的歌><
而且MV也儿童不宜
哈哈
还好我成年了^^

American Idol --Adam Lambert

2009-05-24T06:57:00.000-07:00

这是我最喜欢他的表演~
虽然没当上2009年全民偶像
但他还是我非常欣赏的全面歌手!!
我深信，也很希望
他会红出一番天地^^

与原唱者相比
他带动了这首歌的灵魂
好好品味吧~

考完试啦 !!!

2009-05-23T06:12:00.000-07:00

这次考试
我自问
我没有之前酱努力
为了对得起自己
当然要读完所有考试范围
可是读完归读完，背完归背完~
我的短暂记忆机器很奏效。。。

对我而言
考试前一天是最关键的一天
而考试时间表编排者实在够冷酷的
一天要应付那么多科目的考试
有时更是需要背的科目都在同一天举办gathering...
我姐说得很好，
他说循中的人都好像铁人般。。好妙的形容词~
每天都赶马般把该有的都吃进脑子里去
是否可以真的应付得来？

这次的我
感觉很不踏实
浅浅地、浮浮地--这是我对我考试准备功夫的概论~~~
总感觉我会有“报应”
可是心情还没调整好
就被乱石击中==

别人总觉得我已经很好了
可是我自问我并不是不知足
而是我自知自己退步了
我心也会抽搐～
可是我找不到可以理解我的人

一篇文章写到：
“学会倾听，
我的麻烦是遇到不能好好倾听的观众以及没有休止符的乐章”

站在高处也有滋味不好的时候
即使每天闹在一起很开心
但是面对心事
确实闷在心里欲罢不能...

可惜
情绪总是过于激动的她说：“你还要求什么哦？酱子你还不满意，真不知足....”
还在为自己成绩懊恼的她说：“你不要再‘串’我了啊...”
豁达的她说：“很好了咯”
其实他们并没有恶意
我也不会介意
只是苦思...
难道只有思想较成熟的人才能理解？
抑或是甚至连他们也不会理解？

我想
只有与我有同样遭遇的人
才能感受那份隐藏的痛苦
就是我姐...
可是我不想把这份愁带回家
我不喜欢在一个人面前把东西搬出来
埋怨这个埋怨那个
只是会当场把即兴的情绪抒发
过去了就真的过去了
尽管他是几十分钟前刚发生的事

做人很矛盾
开心过后确实可以暂时忘掉之前的烦恼
我也是时候学会这个道理了
总是太天真地去做自己爱做的事
以为可以卸下压力、忘掉愁绪...
可是事实不是...
该面对的迟早都是该面对

也许是压力作祟
说出来可能难以置信
总是爱笑的我
竟然被压力击跨了
考试前我因为担心不能读完考试的范围
几乎就快崩溃了
就在考试前两天用泪水发泄出来
是在毫无意识的情况下
崩溃大哭
我问自己到底怎么了
{此题无解}

爬得越高，跌得越痛
这句话正中我心靶
考试前担心跌下来会受人言语
别人会如何评估你的失败
考试后成绩退步了会异常的痛
也许是上次不小心地。。太高
所以现在就很不平衡
我并非要求科科都要标青得让人惊讶，也不是要样样最top

我只是......
也许对自己要求过于苛刻
但是因果循环
我可以避免自己跌下来
但是自律能力太差
真希望有人可以把“自食其果”这四个字狠狠地甩到我身上来
好让自己看看是否能承受得住

我需要改正吗？
我是完美主义者吗？
我自讨苦吃？

有感而发

2009-04-24T06:32:00.000-07:00

坐在车上呆呆地
突然看到没下雨却出现在天空的彩虹
与上次难得看到彩虹相隔，大概十年了...
感叹中~~思念之绪在脑海舞动~~

这次的彩虹很特别
因为之前从未好好观察
至今才意外发现
肉眼看得到的彩虹是以亮色为多的
而且彩虹真如书上所描，是如一条通往明亮前途的康庄大道
似乎普通的一句话
却如一滴水，在我心中掀起细微的涟漪....

我很爱想，总是毫无链接性地冥想，总被调侃为想太远~~
有时觉得,“想”不是一件好事吗？
有时觉得，那是否成了我被“常离题”困扰的原因？
无底//
一道“宽厚”的彩虹旁边衬托的是带乌的云
让我想到我的现在和未来...
很矛盾的link——听似荒谬，但书上不总把彩虹描为彩色的人生吗？

脑海浮现一个画面
一个我被某问题考倒的画面
曾几何时,
我也会有自己的梦想...
当下被问到自己的梦想,却有答不上来的时候
我愕然发现我生活的目标为何？
有时会有抽象的答案：
在不怎么有利的条件下，
我唯一可以做的就是努力，
在竞争强烈的“打比赛”中抢到那粒球——在众人中突出自己争取到奖助学金
自己改变前途、自己开辟自己的路...
迷茫的目标
我忘了...忘了最初的自己...
是环境吗？是本性吗？
无底//

谈到最初
我想起一句话：“小孩总是没烦恼，大了就会明白”
有时，我觉得这是一句敷衍小孩“为什么”的一句话；
有时，我觉得这句话带了一丝大人仗着自己的“吃盐”经验，歧视小孩思想的眼光...
即使是事实，也不该抹杀小孩的天空，试问谁不曾天真单纯？
回到正题...
当今，即使自己所经历的不多，但我觉得句话很真...
真到骨子里去，甚至带刺，不是别人，是自己，刺痛自己...
曾几何时
没有顾虑的我意志坚定地说：“我将来要当一位老师”
没有金钱、家庭、生活上的烦恼
感叹...
曾几何时
我开始觉得没了钱真的万万不能，
我开始介入“资本主义”当中？
是本性藏在心中的某个角落？
亦是环境不允许？
都是借口吧？

我在努力着
努力找回自己的梦想
甚至是兴趣
我从来没察觉
我的人生原来是迷了路
盲目~~~~

今天照常地去了我情有独钟的夜市
说不上原因地喜欢逛那区的夜市
坐下来等上菜
我看见一道夕阳余光在乌云中招手
心中跳出一句话：“哇，美得如画！”
回头一想
写生的画会另人赞叹岂不是因为他画的是那美丽的天空吗？
人们把自然景象形容于“美得像一幅画”，
似乎颠倒了原来~~
只有那才是最自然的美，甚至是恒久于心的
创新地改变最初，只会是艺术的美
注：这不适用于人生...

由橙转红的夕阳光
稍纵即逝
是黑夜降临？是雨神驾到？
——我开始享受晚餐...
“不管遇到什么事都不要放弃，地球依然在转”
缘于这个画面，而非原理上...
我联想:
人生，挫折与失败，会像黄昏般，很快地过去
我，无视身边的事与物低头享受晚餐，像人不管别人的看法，继续做自己
这一幅画，带来深思...

这些日子
我在苦恼自己的变化
灯泡一亮
我要做我自己想要的!

看图说爱

2009-04-22T06:19:00.000-07:00

“爱情，让人憧憬，同时让人受伤”
一句看是老土的话，其实很真实...
即使没经历过，也会从旁发现，
事实的残酷，即使你尝试介入也无能为力
住在我心里那份对爱情的信心，似乎慢慢褪色
是因为别人的故事？还是因为自己已不再有自信？

我不想浪费这份天赐的礼物——爱
我坚信，
爱自己，就会有人来爱你（一句我经常重复的话）
我相信我对爱情认真，就会有双向的收获...
期待 ^^

新来报到 ^^

2009-04-05T04:09:00.000-07:00

真的好久好久没写blog了
听了一位“长辈”的话
create 了 blogspot
希望能够重新激发我爱写blog的兴趣

发现自己很难去面对别人的称赞，
与其说不知道如何面对，
不如用“不知给什么反应才适合”来形容...
除非是在很熟、整天玩在一起的朋友面前才敢over一点，
因为都彼此了解。

说真的，很难...
要在任何时候都自在很难...
因为要考虑对方的感受、对方怎样想、对方会否误会、对方对我的印象是怎样... bla bla bla~
一大堆...

有时我在想，
如果不管三七二十一地去做自己
会不会让自己好过点？
成天顾虑这个，顾虑那个...
“烦”字是因此而生的吧？

我觉得做事照顾别人的感受是件好事。
因为这个特点
能在人群中过得开心；
也可能因为这个“想太多”的特点
别人觉得有隔阂，总远离你一分；
也可能因为这一点
别人会骂你自讨苦活；
很多个可能...

拿捏得好，不容易
做自己喜欢的，需要过程
anyway,
我爱我自己^^那才有人来爱我~